All These Tabs

Mind racing
I’m pacing
back and forth
to and from
all the things
there are to do.

The list
is long
and getting
longer.

I run around
all day
yet it
continues
to pile up.

Will it ever end
or will it bury me?

Can I hide?
Should I hustle?
Will I break?

Under the weight
of everything.

So much to do
so little time.

Everyday
a race
back into bed
to do it all again.

I could hide
but instead
I decide:
No more.

I want
time to think,
to process.

I need time
to feel,
to heal.

I must have time
to live.

I begin
to close
these tabs
one by one.

At first
the void
is not
welcome.

The silence,
the stillness,
they create
discomfort.

As I stay
in this space
I notice
my swirling mind
my racing heart.

An urge to
do something.

But I persist.
I will not return.

I fight
for a
new way.

One that:
evokes calm,
allows rest,
gives energy,
brings clarity,
enables creation,
inspires service.

In time
I realize…

All these tabs
were taking my life,
and I want
it back.