Divine Access

“Into your hands I lay down my burdens.
Into your arms I surrender my trust.
Into your heart I commend my spirit.”

I inhale your love.
I exhale and something shifts.
Just a little lighter.
Again and again,
I am almost free.

The lights,
the noise,
everything around me
fades.

Darkness.
I am all alone.
There is nothing.

Then nothing
turns into
everything.

A fullness
in the darkness.
An expansiveness
in my heart.

As if everything exists
inside of nothing.

And then I see a light.

It grows larger, brighter.

I see Jesus.
Arms open,
a slight smile,
illuminated.

The light grows.

Beside Him
I see loved ones,
then angels.

A whole host of people
smiling at me.

Emanating love.
Pure love,
for me.

I am overwhelmed.
My heart expands.
My eyes water.

It’s almost too much to receive.

Here, there is no division
between Heaven and Earth.
We are one.

“Take it easy.”
“Enjoy each day.”
“Be free.”
“You are so loved.”

This is what they tell me.

I want to remain here, always.
I want to remember this, forever.

But the moment I try to keep it,
it starts to fade.

Was this imagined?
Was this real?

As I come back into my body
the feeling remains.
Less intense, but there.

As I open my eyes, I can still see their smiles.
Less vivid, but there.

Like a memory.

This is what it’s like
to remember the truth.

To witness the love of God
and allow it to become
part of me.

I cannot explain,
I simply know.

We are two parts of one world.
Always together,
just beyond,
when we are willing
to allow and receive.