Divine Serenity

There is a world inside me
I didn’t know about,
until I did.

When I saw it
for the first time
I was overwhelmed.

The depth of
sorrow and joy
horror and beauty
peace and pain,
it was too much to bear.

Maybe I should turn back.
Forget what I’ve found.
Leave it undiscovered, undisturbed.

But the ache in my heart
draws me in,
though my head
tells me “run.”

Which will I choose?

There is a new way
in this new world.
It requires opening,
surrendering, feeling, accepting.

I don’t know how.
I’m not equipped.

I forge ahead.
Searching, struggling.
I try, but I can’t seem
to find the way.

As I explore and discover,
my awareness grows.
I have changed.

There are unlearnings –
patterns and habits released,
chains broken.

My understanding
and strength evolve.

New ways of seeing,
of being,
are evident.

I am more free
and yet I yearn
for something more.

A deeper healing.
A more profound peace.

I hit my knees
and pray for release.

Desperate to receive
and believe.
Completely vulnerable.
Surrendered.

The love,
the grace,
and the peace
wash over me.

A warm light.
Holy. Sacred.
Covering.

I have lost all sense of me.
All I know is You.
Then You, in me.
Divine serenity.

For the first time
I know who You are,
whose I am, and
what I must do.

The moment passes.
Realities of life push and pull again.
But now I know.

All I must do is remember…
Who You are.
Whose I am.
What I must do.

Keep coming back.
Keep choosing you.